unless you are going seriously for your resolution then dont have any. and unless you will be in the army for the nexy whole year of 2009 then i recommend not to go for one. because my whole 2008 i have been in green and i see green people everywhere i go. and my resolution. why ask. ok perhaps get boling to laser quest.

spread it:


because you lie beside me now, i dream of kites and carousels and sleep at peace within myself and fear the night no more. imu.

Peace

whats already written is true. gaza.

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hee. oh my i just love her staring at me like that. ooopppsss.

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one fine day:


<3

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aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan-akan

kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yang memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi

selalu ada, kau selalu ada
selalu ada, kau selalu ada

Peace

it just totally describes both sides of gender. and by the way, by the way. singapore flyer shuts down for a bit just now.

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running on gravel track is much more harder than it seems. going for 10 click is very ambitious. my 6 click was a drag with long stretch of route every corner turn. and i tend to go very slow and at short strikes which makes the run very shaggedelicious. and next time remember to tighten the shoe laces you will run much more easier, pssh.

and i feel that the second leg match of singapore against vietnam was very unfair. they, the lions were controlling much of the game and then suddenly vietnam scored out of nowhere. its like im playing counterstrike and im fragging opponents god like when suddenly the internet was cut off. its like ownageee big time mannn. anyways good play from the singaporean players worth watching the replay.

have you seen the malaysian national service advertisement on rtm 1? ill keep my comments and try to contain myself here. im not trying to compare but. what the.

anyway my 4 days road trip. thailand border. two resorts. food and more food:







more pictures somewhere im just so lazy to post. miss you.

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im at somewhere in a crystal mosque. thank you wifi. i can put my phone to good use now. miss you.

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try to leave a light on when I'm gone 
something I rely on to get home 
one I can feel at night
a naked light, a fire to keep me warm 
try to leave a light on when I'm gone 
even in the daylight, shine on 
and when it's late at night you can look inside 
you won't feel so alone 

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they like me doing duty with them because im cool. hmm. thats it im going to buy myself xbox 360. too tempted with the games already.

wah serious ah free flight seats to thailand. and since shaz tagged me. the age of 21 things you dont want to know about me. heh heh:

1. People call me mat.
2. I dont understand why they call me mat.
3. I love photography.
4. I love visual art.
5. I am an infantry officer of the Singapore Armed Forces.
6. I eat raw eggs.
7. I will always do something out of lego.
8. I look cool on the outside. Its different in the inside.
9. I look very familiar to everyone.
10. I am the dreams of every mother in law.
11. Ignore 11.
12. I am not a hardcore music labels bands or such. I just listen.
13. Which reminds me I listen to radio stations only.
14. I am very weird and random.
15. I am currently a sergeant rank in the online fps game, combat arms.
16. I am trying very hard to get my mood on studying again.
17. I will look very sleepy all the time.
18. I sleep in meetings.
19. I am close to owning a cigarette brand name.
20. I know how to dance a bit.
21. I love you.

Tagging everyone.

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finally the last batch of nsmen has ended their training for the year of 2008. wooh. one cool herd of dudes mayne. they are around the age of mine only older. so yep the ambience is well liked and if its not for em i wont be happy going to work in this holiday season. it happened that the malay pop singer was in there too plus that 2x5 dol suria actor whose in support coy; didnt realised him until i played the soccer match. very very popular regiment i must say. and i realised this phrase of theres a kid in every man is quite true. we still like games and toys yo. haha. and now im on leave. visiting kelantan and terengganu this weekend for some honeymoon with mom.

i was running just now and i think i saw a nicole scherzinger look alike walking the opposite route. oops sorry i think i shouldnt mention it but thanks for the stare, i was quite motivated to sprint the last round. hee. and my timing is still bad.

last duty of the year! 5 more months to becoming a man! haha.

Peace

its not a bird. its not the plane. its my heart.

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i think i should be working out again. build again. swim. run. swim. run.

ok friends pack your spray cans we go paints im finally on leave till 2009 come knocking down on me. but wait a trip to malaysia first. oh yep.

yes man. certainly. sugar we're going down swinging.

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woohoo nfs undercover in the psp. vroom.

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crap la i lost my spectacles.

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i ruptured the blister. hopefully all goes well tomorrow. im just so disappointed with the organisation. very very sad. i dont have much say but to just to do deliver my best and gets the job done.

oh wells, i miss mom. and i love and miss you too,

give me more lovin' from the very start, piece me back together when i fall apart,
tell things you never even tell your closest friends.
make it feel good when i hurt so bad, best i that i've had, i'm so glad i found you, i love bein' around you.

Peace

dont ever ask why i posted this.

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this big bugger just cut in while i was teaching and complained that they had already went thru the lesson earlier this year, and brags that its a waste of time because of the stuffs they construct, on a saturday. hey pal, so what if youre big. im just following whats your programme has stated and im doing my job as a committed full time national servicemen, and you come to me and start nagging straight on my face about the lesson on a saturday. can i break your neck?

well, i ignored him. and the lesson ended fast. and i quickly get onto the table soccer just to blast some balls in. the singaporean hostage got killed. quite saddening. the SOF should have come and save her.

so much for a day. thank you.

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i just had maggi mee on my mess tin. really bring back memories, i used to eat 14 pax of taiwan instant noodles in one cold night in a ditch. it really kept me warm throughout and i felt really good sleeping with it. and speaking of that i went back to my training grounds. so much has changed. our flag was gone. my pc is no longer there. my room, my bed is taken over. and rcp days were still fresh. im not proud of it but it relinquishes the time i had in ocs. mega mac is awesome man.

and i paced the ranger for the whole 5km. wooohooo. rangers lead the way. hooyah.

so going to be busy again.

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i just watched the most disgusted game show ever when i turned on the teevee at this moment. who would pee to answer the question correctly and score points. dayumeee.

imissmom.

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idontknowwhyipostthis. momsgoinghongkong.

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aw man. we lost. awww. too confident for the table soccer. i didnt realise i was shivering. anyways ill still be a foosball addict. but i like how they thrashed them back in winning 11. huhu. regulars vs nsfs. ok la not a bad day for the cohesion only we were lacking cheerleaders. playing frisbee is not gay ok. its a matter of agility.

coe for cars is freaking two dollars. its like buying a new car and go for a macdonalds drive thru to buy cheeseburger. the bestest time to buy a car. wooh. talking about macdonalds i want mega mac! burghh.


wouldnt it be nice if shes my boss. ill be gladly to go for every lunch with her. heehee.

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just to put it in layman stories. wake up. wake up. wake up. grabbed the towel got me dressed. had breakfast. put on my shoes. turn the knob. kissed her. walked down the corridors. caught up with my navy friend limping. the excalator was slow but the train arrived nicely. clementi. free shuttle. changed. run. and run. and run. lesson. and i got screwed for a signature. how bad can that be. to make it sound nicer. unarmed close combat arrest lesson. the wholeeee day. one whole day. then i spent the rest of the time in front of the computer. imissyoubadly. what more should i say. goodnight now.

theres only one thing. to do. three words. for you. iloveyou.

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one of the withdrawal symptoms of missing someone.

Peae

wah i miss training.

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tomorrow is friday. someone got killed by tigers. now poor tigers going to serve confinement. its not their fault. anyways, i want to keep one tiger cub. i will name it teegir. ill make sure he is well fed. he will grow big and strong so that he can protect my family from any villains. i know my post sound childish. you dont have to mention it.

whats up with people at stomp posting teeny weeny matters like no more happy meal boxes? and this? adoi. people are becoming more and more paranoid and more will become to. this should discontinue man. the people managing that site needs to do some screening first yo.

i hate it when someone supposedly in charge of something pushing all the shitty jobs to me. hate it to the core dude. whats up with straits times lately, with headlines, 'man in tudung...'? i remembered straits times promote good english.

and immissingyou real bad. i think i sound grumpy here. ok lets watch her to cool me down:

ohmy she so sweet. i think i post this before.

Peace

and my savings increases. every tenth of each month will be a happy day. happy happy. eat 10 happy meal, very happy. so now save.

anyway, happy ord-ing. ahh. whens my turn.


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i really hope obama do something good to his nation and of course the world with his ever favourite quote of the week, change has come. hopefully the world really change during his term, having the world at peace but im not sure about palestinian-israeli conflict. thats like never ending. anyway, its something about obama, he has some sort of political chemistry with the people, the way he presents himself, the way he talks. to be exact his aura attracts people. like fiona xie attracts me. hahha. ohkayyy. for a note, hopefully obama do something good and meaningful that the human race will ever remember like Salahuddin did. insyaAllah, lets hope for the best and im glad i lived in this generation full of changes and history? on a lighter note,

adoi why my bills so high one. i want to save. aiya. aiya. aiya. where to pump more money. ill clean your house. ill paint your house can? but must pay me la. aiya. must save must save. sometimes i do think whered my money gone to. like this how to get married. hahha, oops too early. saving is one thing, to get more to save is another problem. i must resolved this. on another lighter-er note,

i like the way they captured the flag during the middle portion, nice tactics. sorry im quite random, but i love firefights like these. learn and adapt and apply. 3G army yo. and finally on a heaviest note.

imissyou.

Peace

obama won when i had lunch. guess michael jackson going to revert back his skin colour. anyway back to work.

the time has begun, the rise of the underdogs.

Peace

now i know how they do in them magazines. maybe i should open up a slimming agency and make some money. hmm:

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let me see. sunday just passed. its 6 mintues into monday. im using the office computer, im still awake. what is happening? and im wearing green. ah, this will be my worst nightmare ever if id finish army. oh dear, help me. nothing interesting happened. just some few pointers.

good people and visitors alike of singapore please, i say please if you have a video cam or a camera please use it for proper use. like for family outings at east coast park, your first virgin trip to the zoo. or your best friends wedding. and not. i bold. not to go around restricted area and start filming. you make people like me. and my friends life difficult. am i mad? no, we are still staying alert. and for goodness sake we are protecting the island. and if you do please ask for permission. understand. do you understand? get this in the head. what should i do when you do understand and you repeat the same mistake again?

my apologies. its 27 minutes into monday now. i think ill go gym later.

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i didnt really do anything much today. only an arrow got me blindly out of nowhere. well the stress hormones was really up after lunch, i kept typing and typing of what obvious on the surface but deep in the ocean the bigger species eat up the smaller ones. and im the fishermen trying to nab the big ones. this time my fishing line snapped and the big fish got away gobbling once again the poor little dudes. ill improvised my rod ok. maybe ill use a fish netting see if they can bite thru.

haaa. anyways i still cant get enough of table soccer. its like the in thing man. perhaps the regulars signed on because of that. hahha. free play from morning till lunch till time off. the best way to de stress! even the air con is blowing hard we delta still sweat fighting our opponents and be the top of the league. tomorrow must play again.

tomorrow run again.

Peace

ah i just have to improve myself. everytime. its always everytime im shot to do something, there will always be mishaps. here and there. the small missing holes. but nevermind. i still beat them 1 on 2 with table soccer. that releases the stress for a bit. clean my work space. update my correction book. wasted like 3 hours doing nothing. played chess. nothing much.

nothing much. i just have this urge to just stop wasting money on transportation fares. and invest on a transport mountain bike. i wants to travel to camp. i will do it. i cant bear waste more money. its for the future you know.

oh yes the classic. she quite hot eh. hee. miss you. =)

Peace

when you cry, i will have compassion and cry with you.
when you shout with joy, i will laugh with you.
when you are down, i will encourage you.
when you fall i will raise you up.
when you are tired, i will carry you
i will be with you till the end of days, and i will love you forever.

Peace

i was on movie marathon throughout my duty. erm. yes i am still vigilant. when i was on break ok. i watched all the shootings, bang bangs, killings. totally bad for the kids. and i notice that most of the movies i watched used mostly technologies to kill victims. and now im having technophobia while im typing this. its like someone out there is lurking and stalking random victims across the net. ohkay i guess i have too much screening. anyway i just realised that its mark walberg and not matt damon, who acted in the bourne series, in the movie shooter. they looked the same yo.

matt damon

mark walberg.

almost the same. almost look like. me. heh. anyway going to continue my marathon again tomorrow. and i feel like dancing to high school musical. hee. but to this kind of tune:

back to the old school! miss you!

Peace

i feel like going trekking.

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i came to show face and complete my ippt. hee.


alhamdulillah. it felt so orgasmic when the receipt print out. 200 dollars richer now.

Peace

i just came back from interval run an hour ago. it was stitching, but i just had the urge to run and run faster. i feel free. i wants to fly. i looked up the dark sky. its going to rain someday. which is good, i guess. im on duty tomorrow. the long hours spent staring. oh well im in green. who will if im not doing my part. okay. had raya with polymentos in the day. agree with wan that the feeling wasnt there like the one we had(some several posts before). maybe because of the ones who did not turn up. or work had us all down. but im glad to see the rest. we grown up no doubt because all talk national service now. maybe next time we see kids tagging along. who knows.




im going to run again tomorrow. wo xiangnian ni.

Peace

eat. sleep. watch teevee. eat more. play table soccer. repeat. and im back home

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am so uninspired. am shooting rounds with my carbine. am getting killed. am going to work tomorrow again. am left with 7 months of national service. am having duty this friday. its october yo. then itll be november. then december. then january plus february and march. april and finally 12 may two thousand and nine. i will keep my uniform in an air tight cupboard. and then celebrate for a bit. and the study starts all over again.

ignore this post. im just filling it.

i m i s s.

you.

Peace

alhamdulillah it went well. at one point of time i was like finding time to go pee. it was crazy man. my hair was like astro boy trying to make things run smoothly. the superiors are bombarding me with nuclear bombs. but its over yo. lets wait for more suprising tasks.and people are still going raya when im serving the nation. i want green packets. more. more. im still a student. please give me. i want to buy ice cream.

letters letters. here they comeee. must. smell. the hair.

Peace

a bit like stressed and depressed.

Peace

Back home/ We`ve got a lot of shit on our minds
We`re always behind on something cause there`s not enough time
And we`re non-stop/bottom line/doing what we gotta do
To get some food in the fridge and stay out of the hospital
Back home there`s people calling us hopeless
People trying to tell us all we need is some focus
But focus
Focus is overrated
Cause you see every blemish and mistake and can`t change it
Back home is alvarado/K-town and J-town
Or little tokyo for those that don`t know
Where figures shiver/living right in the litter
Where kids write bigger/right inside the LA river
On the concrete/a symbol of our everyday way
It`s that color and concentration over heavy and grey
And by the time the ink dries on this page
I`ll be half a day away from the place where I stay

back home//fort minor.


yes home is heaven.

Peace

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i just hate last minute hiccups man. hes a captain. i cant do shiet. now i need to find a replacement. on a weekend. oh well.


i miss you terribly. i miss you i do.

Peace

i gobble only tarts and makmur and any chocolaty kuehs. i still got green packets and its good to see pretty cousins again. hee.

and i need to go back camp on a friday. and then the saturday too, whattt.

can i have this please?

Peace

weather was cool. not hot. just settled. i was unusually early today, waited 10 minutes before the routine shuttle bus to camp halts nicely outside the sheltered walkway. its monday.

i find myself changing into my pt attire once i climbed up my bunk. its the run again. the 5km 3 times a week run. its a standing order. am not sure why but i paced myself slowly this time. maybe sahur was heavy. the general was just right a metre away from me though but i already panted heavily the second round. i slowed down again. i feel uninspired running alone. and there i was reminding myself back in time with my platoon mates. back when we were doing the 5 basic exercise. oh yes, basic. then the run comes in and it would always be breezy. every morning we come down with our dreamy eyes and start running. we sing we sweat we talk nonsense on our dreams. and the one at front will always go faster and we keep complaining over at breakfast. i remembered this one morning we had to change to our battle gear which include the helmet and plus some dummy magazines which made the load unbearable for the first 50 metres but the camaraderie pushed me on. the core value runs in the head. i have to move on. my buddy have to move on. we had to move on. just a few clicks ahead. we removed our helmets. the feeling was great. we tap each others back, you did a great job mate. eventually, we won the assault course.

im on my third round now, i increased my pace. i still clocked my usual timing. it was monday.

the elite troops. im trying to watch redacted now.

Peace

grab my hands now. and lets just chill.

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10/10. i spent the whole morning trying to find the subtitles for this film. worth the search. oh my, expect me to keep repeating the play button like i do for band of brothers.

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its raya down the corner. i feel like i have not done that good yet and i have a lot of things, i hate it when i say things, to settle. i just feel like not doing anything anymore. take me far away in the highlands, breezing with green field, sipping on coffee and stare your warm eyes. lets forget the world.

and a thought, if everyone were rich, who would clean the street?

Peace

very deep meaning.

why must out of all parts of the body, the mosquitoes must irritatingly bite on the thighs. its not a good sight you know to see me scratching the back part of it. itchy. i hope the new uniforms that will be issued out soon have good material that will break the mosquitoes mouth tube or better known as proboscis when it tries to penetrate thru the uniform. bleed for your country dont breed. aiya why i keep complaining like a wussy.

this batch of nsmen im having is one great bunch, they are a battalion of dedicated soldiers undergoing tight training for their in camp. i truly adore their morale and commitment to defence. well perhaps i think theyre still at the early stage of their reservists but yep i hope it continues on throughout their cycle. the commanders especially played excellent role in it. i learnt a lot. well theyre leaving soon and not coming to see me again teaching them because by then ill be.

ord oh.

when can i see your face again.

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shiet im doing the random sending of messages again. this time its more. i need a new phone but what phone. i dont know because im always prone to having it dropped and thrown all over the shop. how? tie black string onto my waist or neck. ok can. will do. and currently my phone is having its last days with the screen being blank and black i can still message goodnight you know. but its not fun when im not expecting that the boss is calling. my printed numbers on the bills is going to exceed.

and my boss is influencing me trying to make me psychoneurotic with signing on. he is trying to lure me to the dark side with all the best deals i could get. no please help me no. i dont want please stop. help. pull the charging handle and then bang! bang! oh no its coming to me again. bang.

i just saw the army truck owned a car. i dont know hows the civillian condition but the vehicle was totally scrapped and the godknowshowold truck was still intact. no dent no sand.

i just realised i clocked 23 working hours on monday. no sleep just 1/2 break for fast. and then ears go ringing again. and i talk nonsense when im shagged.

for all my life im yours.

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i cant wait for tomorrow monday to end. the past few days i have been risking my life with live explosives and ammunitions and it went thru all the way till saturday. im having the ringing sound in my ears now. i always kept forgetting to wear the ear plugs. ok lets hope my listening dont get degraded.

ok im getting irritated by two things. the weather which has been hot, and my handphone which when i forgot to unlock it keep sending messages and my inbox will end up with 50 messages from me. yesss, thats why i put the first contact as myself so that it wont send any random message to anyone else. see la later my bill how.

lets hope all go smooth tomorrow.

m i s s y o u.

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the past few days the weather has been stickingly hot. like sticky gluey hot. and yes i have been out there toasting myself. and i feel sticky. it continues on thru the night too. i can seal envelopes with my sweat now. its sticky. i can have post it notes all over my body so i wont forget everything now. ok skoo the nonsense. im just tired i cant think anything better but you.

when you hear the boom sound. you take cover.

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this is how you aim your frigging weapon. which part of it you dont understand.

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haa so many tasks.

miss you.

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maybe ill invest in new hobby. anyone interested?

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easy to say very hard to think. harder to suggest. aiya. i think my standard is dropping. i want to go for missions please. or maybe ill make my own and gather my own troops. no dont think violence. im going to do something beneficial to the society. bah.

i hate working in office. there will be office girls with ever changing fashion taste with skimpy clothings and its bad for my eyes and they go scandalicious. thats why i prefer my hands to be dirty with oil and make my own motor that can fly. im random because i just watched the typical drama where the husband work at the office as a manager then got distracted my hot mamas in the office. please dont let me get into that situation please. thank you.

ilu.

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work work work.

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i hate to be put in position where i have to allocate people to do my job. to make things worse, they had me at the last minute. not really that last minute but it was quite a headache finding manpower, when the strength is low and i was left alone in the office where the slightest form of sound was the air conditioning system working hard to keep my cool. i gots to play medal of honour along the way with the rest which is quite therapeutic because theyll know why. hehh. and back to the topic of allocation, i will leave the other party in a state of unhappiness because its last minute and sometimes the job doesnt acquire much effort except just standing for half an hour. i would wish not to ask for it but its the rule. and rule cant be abided. anyways whats done was smooth sailing. thank you for those who had helped.

i hate meetings, conference and whats nots. im seen dozing off 20 mins after it commences. well if it doesnt require me to hear it then can i leave please. just update the minutes in the email. ok sorry i know i am a small fry but im a statue attending the meeting.

and if you keep complaining how hard life is, then dont become a soldier.

ehh i saw how they change the macdonald menu banner. cool. and my spec is back.

and malique got married last month.

missyou.

Peace

satu fakta dua penipuan
yang pertama kita ambil, dua buang
kenapa mengeluh
dengar cerita lagi, dah jenuh lagi
komplikasi dalam komunikasi jadi konfrontasi
mulut orang perosak reputasi, pembunuh motivasi
mereka pakar fabrikasi, modifikasi
di depan senyum, belakang dengki
yang cemburu mungkin teman kita sendiri
siapa tahu?
peduli, kita dah semuanya bersama
dah senang bersama, dah susah pun bersama
ketawa bersama, menangis bersama
ku bersumpah harap kita mati pun bersama
ke akhirnya.

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wasted a last minute effort due to last minute instructions. which flushed my worries down the drain, should have played pool longer. and dont stare at me like a dog waiting for instructions. im just doing what im supposed to do. thank you. anyway here comes the bills. nice job on savings. i think i should spend less now. its no use regretting just work on the current situation and please be aware of it. the nerve of getting thru the next chapter of study is gritting, its a foresee of mental being tested to the limit and im not the type who holds books and sleep with it. anyway. barack obama, the first. anwar, back fresh azimiz. and soon there will be the first military melayu general. just hear for it. i have a lot to rant today but im being me, i dont talk much. i just miss you.

i didnt know clementi was that big. good trekking haikal. ramadhan.

meet the one(annoying) of many specialists.

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maybe i learnt something today. it was raining heavily though. thats why we have to always prepare for the worst.

and i just realised my geography teacher is in the current in camp NSman battalion. he remembers me and of course i still remember him teaching me maps so i wont get lost in the jungle. yyep. so nice to meet him. well i wanted to hug him but i be professional and shook hands. hes going off back to my old school soon and its teachers day few days later. and i really appreciate my posting, i learnt a lot of stuffs from NSman. the outside world there.

akutetapengkauyangpunya.

Peace

welcome to the jungle. hooyah.

again.

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its a sunday. its morning. im awake. im washed up. im wearing my uniform. im in the office. its a sunday. i miss mom. i miss home. i miss my bed. imissyou. its a sunday.

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its so orgasmic to hear the sound of chinook just flying above the head. and i was just waiting for it to transform into one of the decepticons, weapons free and cause chaos. but that (un)fortunately didnt happen, it just flew by, i waved my hands and it went another round. mmm, make me orgasm for one more time.

haha ok. people ask me what do i do in the army. i say i defend the beautiful girls of this island from being raped by the enemy. thats not the point, my main point is what do you think the army do? ok lets not go into this topic shall we. lets just crap about me.

i am doing fine. andyesyouremine.

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one of my heroes. maj richard d winters. hes old now. maybe i posted this before. the morale booster. calm but thinks like a storm.

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yeay i found my shoe(i think) online. only that i got it customised accidentally by myself. i call my shoe the drip. it has been with me since 2005 and i love wearing it then. comfortable, mobile and it flies. i dont look cool without it. it has been one of my bestest buddy. going thru trips and falls, it witnessed everything. loveyou shoe.

ok look up. im here. it has been a long time since i touched the aerosol paint. i missed it. the cans are drying up now. it come whispering thru the nozzle. soon ok. soon. as soon as i can. will do. must do. can do. nike.

work work.

Peace

weekend duty suck eh sir.

half of me would agree to it but in respond to that, i gave him a smile, not to agree to his statement; just to show that im happy doing my duty(hur hur). if its not me doing it then who will. interacting with them makes life less sian. and tomorrow is monday meaning, work starts for the week. which will last for the next 5 days or so and another tour of duty for the weekend. hmm.

just would like to congratulate the table tennis paddlers for achieving thru semis on friday. i could not concentrate on my pool game whilst watching them. so let us hold our hands(balls) together and cheer them up for tonight final match. maybe theres debates that theyre not pure singaporean and singapore depend too much on foreign talents. and winning a medal is like singapore winning brazil in world cup finals. but hey i bet you guys are gripping and get your heart all pumped up when you watch the battle of the titans this evening. nah i just want it to sound grand. even prime minister wants to watch it. remember good citizens of singapore they are wearing our jersey yo.

goodnight gentlemen. goodmorning ladies. missyou.

Peace

i wish i had another break. till next week. come on its the lull period. im lazy now. national day done. maybe the fireworks was boring. i was afraid msk would pull a trick but it didnt happen. thank goodness that. and im like glued to the olympics soccer. its like world cup all over again. yahp. new intake coming soon and theres this takraw competition which i have no idea how i am gon survive the rounds. maybe ill just stand one corner and cheer my other two mates. hey thats a great idea. ok i should do that. sunday was knocked off day so nothing interestingly happened and monday too. so i should get busy tomorrow. missyoualotyouknow?



anyway,


its malique ok. spread it. its wow.

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sometimes i do envy them. nevermind. the apache looks so hot. days have been hectic recently.

ilovethatnurse.

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nsman are one great bunch of dudes mayne. i got treated with ice cream and vitamin tees(dont ask) and they thought i was like one of em going thru reservist.

ohkay im tired now. miss you mom.

Peace

oh my feet are so itchy. feel like tearing the skin and brush it with dettol.

not going to leave. you.

Peace

idonotknowwhyifeelsouninspiredtodoanything.

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its been exhausting these few days where the worst is yet to come. i am still working, mind you its the weekends. so yep we just ended a small scale training and then we were sitting down waiting for transport to arrive and we started talking. if you guys had notice, each soldier has an id tag also better known as dog tag (engraved identification tag, pfft just wikipedia if you still not sure what is it), which they have to wear it around their neck, the sole purpose is to identify the corpse in case they die brutally in a war. and this particular commander had an additional engraved dog tag which i was deeply touched by it:

im sorry angela, i have to go. i love you and i miss you.

i miss mum.

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ok i am occupied with work. my room is 20% cleaned. it will be forever. and i am spending a lot this month. literally a lot and i need to save. i need to save. i need to save for school. save to pay bills. save in time of emergency.

save for...

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because the hero will eventually become the villain. that is why i do not choose to be the hero.

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avisiontocreateabrand.worldwithoutspacebars.

imhighoncaffeine.igotbored.andimouttawords.sorry.

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oh noes i think the coffee that my colleague prepared manually is starting to kick in. he did it from a french press thingy with all the true coffee seeds and the aroma went all over the office awakening me when i enter this morning. i took a sip and then gulps. in the end i went for another cup. wah crap. i have a course in the morning. i think ill be staring at my ceiling for quite sometime before i sleep. maybe not. how now brown cow. how now sweetie pie.

its so good to hear from my ex platoon on how they progessing thru the email. they were spamming the inbox with all them updates. i hope this goes all the way till we age and wither.

them the best.

lets run now.

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i just realised im a right brainer. i dont do thinking that good. thats why.

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im being easily lethargic every time i step home. the bed is like heaven. it will be hard for me to be detached from it. lazy, sleepy, any unhealthy word you can relate of, makes me today. its a saturday and its the weak end. i just dont want to think or do about anything right now. i clocked a marathon of 12 hours non-stop dreams. and the best next thing i can reach to do is grab my psp and play a full time pro evo 2008 with manchester united. what should i do next. i did a little exercise though, walk around the house grabbing some food. and did a little finger acrobats on the keyboard. how wonderful.

you know what, they should introduce free running to the police corp. you know the parkour, peeps jumping from buildings to buildings like they got no better things to do. why not train the police that, thieves will be quite stunned then and thus easier to capture them. if it is, ill be glad to join the blue force. haha. ohkay not. ill think twice. special ops command sounds nice.

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am not sure whether im being accidentally rude or was actually rude to this guy. he woke me up in the middle of the night asking for help and i was just tucking in to sleep. i was being grudgy at first but apologise for it. and in a daze i asked what did he want but that guy walked away feeling pissed. so okay guess what did i do in that situation,

the answer was i went back to sleep. and the next day i think i got screwed. soon ill get screwed big time because the guy was asking for some medical help. and that guy was some big shot. hmm. like hancock would say.

"goodjob"

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im watching this movie i downloaded zeon months ago. only to find that i had no opportunity in finding time to watch it. the film called disturbia by the way. oh my im like few hours away to my outfield and here i am watching it. i just find myself ironic. thats all. and the screen got me hooked alright. the girl was beautiful. the storyline got me really hyped up. you know those kind of scream movies, full of suspense etc. but this one, throughout the whole play, the character is just running around his neighbourhood; in his house actually. which i find it cool.

okay, im getting bored. so whats up sugar.

Peace

ehh kat mana nihh.

meow.

literally a bored game. i finish my drinks though.

i am blue ranger.

thanks for the short meet up. boling growing shorter. with shorter hair. kitchener road. thanks uhh boling. thanks people. time to pack my bag and head to the jungle. hooyah.

miss the gadis. hoho.

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i was running happily at east coast this morning when i think i saw the president. i thought ok this must be some normal citizen going for a jog with his friend. when i got closer, my comrades start greeting him, oh and then i realise his friend was the bodyguard. a few metres i start to see police vans. and yep it was the president.

am not sure whether to call this guy stubborn or idiot or dumb. maybe all. the train was one minute, maybe less, away from reaching the station and this dude is standing with his feet quarter off the ledge of the platform and i was wearing my uniform. as a responsible and trained officer of the singapore armed forces(haha). it was my duty to double my pace and knock him down(punish) in front of the public whom decided to talk amongst themselves not taking any action but just wait and be kiasu to see what happens next. well of course, the punishing didnt happen, i did remind him and he steps back slightly before the train zooms past. and he said thanks. while i was cursing badly inside.

sorry.

Peace

before i forget this. i was sitting around with my colleagues during lunch in the middle of nowhere and as usual random conversation comes in, like from getting demerit points to branded bags stewardess use and then came this. one of the guys start talking about girls(the usual, cfms etc) they discussed something about girls reaching a stage where theres this aura of attractiveness that makes the male go woo. ok im using my term, screw me if you want to. and out of the blue, they told me theres a malay word for it. i said dara at first. however, they insisted that the word starts from the letter g. so it kept me thinking for a day till i got the answer.

"siapa kata gadis melayu tak menawan, tak menarik hati, tiada memikat..." haha. macam you tau.

eee naik bulu roma aku.

the board(bored) of fame.

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these two pictures reminded me some of the worst experiences. its not that long ago. and it made me somewhat regret still. it still fresh in the mind on how i panickly got over the radio. the thought of being lost deep inside with thunderstorms that kept me slipping into the river full of leeches. i almost lost an eye in the thick vegetation. i was the gang leader then; bringing up the morale for team members is even harder when i had the thought of giving up. did i mention that i cried silently on one of my lonely nights? and all done, i was pissed and disappointed with myself of all the torture that went to waste. im just glad that dear pc was damn proud of me. a phase i will never forget.

"...if you had lost a man in a battle, dont let your morale down on the rest, the war still have to continue."

dude why am i even sharing this. i guess i just have to let this heart out. like i had mentioned earlier, its still caught up in the mind. it feels as if i have some unfinished business. nonetheless, i do have slight regrets over it.

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work has been fine. erm. yep. only that i could not stand the distance to and fro camp and house. ill wake up early and end up finding myself drooling in the train. i should just stay in for the whole week but nobody wants to, and im coward enough to be the only one sleeping in the whole building. people here are great. that goes along to the facilities too. excellent. i love work.

i like mcspicy. it tastes just like her. yumm.

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sale. go go go.

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im watching over there the series. some stories of an attachment of soldiers in war torn iraq. i thought of an action flick throughout but guess i got it wrong. its more of elaboration on the emotions and experience of the soldiers there, and effects of family members and loved ones whos back home. quite interesting. yep. and it was aired on local channel 5, i think i missed it during bmt. but hey thanks to the internet mayune im watching it full steam.

so the hot season is here. half-full water bottle drink up.

miss you again. and again. and again.

Peace

meet one of my girlfriends. macam paham.

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