im a creep.

i can't find my faith to do anything. i am not advancing neither is my money. i never told all but i bought a camera out of the schools offer. and now everyone knows. however, i cannot believe some would take advantage of it. living in singapore is desperate afterall. earning 200 dollars a day is still isnt enough.

world is full of temptations. i cannot resist. the technology advances and it makes people powerful which makes me forget of the truth. is it hard to believe that there is much more powerful being than us humans. i pray that Allah save us all, open our hearts and do not let the truth go to waste. heavens awaits for the believers.

i need to buck up. im all about games since i quitted putzmeister.

Peace

empty.

i missed writing. writing to console myself. writing to endorse being a human. nothings much really. what i have earned i spent all. im such a loser, listening, pleasing my desires. it is a strong being in there controlling me. i have no armour. my heart is bare being attacked tremendously. i have my mind to execute a no go. and yet the heart keeps pumping harder and failed too many times.

yeahp.

first up. i had three straight red bulls for today. been not sleeping for 36 hours now. imma so high i can kill a bird. what is up with girls, ladies buying cigarettes in the mornengh 7 11. three in a row queuing for them packs. them unhealthy for bearing kids in their tummy. plus i think we should have lesser reflective walls or signs mannn. big time vainer society.

guess what. the 4 months holidays are in and i need a job.

Peace

insanity.

it is driving me. it is driving me to work harder. i cannot fail you mother.

Peace

here we go boys.

well good luck to me.

Peace

i cry when angels deserve to die.

i could not run any faster. my feet felt numb, but i kept on going to finish another ten rounds. i keep forcing my stride higher so that i can go faster. there is something pulling me back to the ground i feel like quitting.

i cannot do anything. my belief to achieve is far. i am still breathing. i lay motionless on this chair with papers of fake scribblings. my brain is dead.

Peace

on the double.

i find myself lazy to write, everyday. there are a lot of thoughts in me that were supposed to pen down. at least it will give me smiles ten years down the road. i have been balding badly enough, the opacity of my head is getting clearer day by day. EID is being worse than a bitch, i need to complete at least the frame to move along the toilet seat. hey at least im proud doing my project, it teaches me something every single time i think of toilets. today was quite blatant i supposed. the weather is getting more or less like Brunei, having mood swings; thunderstorms out of the blue.

i cranked up my running routine now, trying to clock faster timing for the distance. i hope Ford could help with that. the tenth of April will be IPPT, hoping it could top up my savings and then we, Ford and me could at least have a celebration drink. only that ill be having plain water.

i met my 2IC recently, he was taking part-time masters, was planning to pursue full-time study next year onwards, masters, pHD etc. well, guess he's hanging his green uniform, life in army is shiet. i feel you Captain. i wish him all the best. guess students will never ever have the thought that he was a prestigious Infantry Officer. well Sir, hope you become some professor some day, and build some massive weapons for our defense ay?

i actually kinda miss this space. i miss wearing green though. i dont know why this feeling. cheeeeeep.

Spread the Peace

disease.

this laziness is a disease in me. i am so lacking of motivation. the fire to burn on revision. i am left with 8 weeks to exams, dammit.

Peace

all i want to do is fly.

a lot lot lot lot lot lot things running in my head consecutively, making me stone. why not blog, i am fighting procrastination by doing something. i have wasted 1 hour just now staring at the wall. another 30 mins watching youtube and youtube is awesome. it is like cable teevee, anything and everything under the sun.

anyway, i woke up late for project meet up, a leader. waking. up. late. how bad does that reflect me. ah, i have to improve on my sleeping timings and my eating habits which reminded me, i had 2 servings of fried bee hoon just before i log on to blogger.

3 quizzes in the coming week. cool or what. project and project and project and project and project.

call me up for reservists. seriously.

Peace

so long ah.

it has been a while since i write nonsense on this ancient blog of mine. it is already the second month of 2010 and the world is spinning at faster rate as the weeks passed. so i have to get a load off my chest for a bit before i resume with tutorials that i have been lagging with. i will not whine too long. or rant too much.

first and foremost i screwed up my first semester. all the xbox fault lah. haha, pardon me. anyway, looking forward, i have plentiful modules to be completed if i were to graduate in 3 years time. but with the pace i am having; retaking all my failed modules, i prolly have to go for one more semester or prolly the whole year to complete a full degree.

aiya. i dont know. for now i am trying very hard to study. if only the computer and internet did not exist today, studying will be like facebook. why cant facebook provide tutorials. hello, im an addict.

Peace