insanity.

it is driving me. it is driving me to work harder. i cannot fail you mother.

Peace

here we go boys.

well good luck to me.

Peace

i cry when angels deserve to die.

i could not run any faster. my feet felt numb, but i kept on going to finish another ten rounds. i keep forcing my stride higher so that i can go faster. there is something pulling me back to the ground i feel like quitting.

i cannot do anything. my belief to achieve is far. i am still breathing. i lay motionless on this chair with papers of fake scribblings. my brain is dead.

Peace

on the double.

i find myself lazy to write, everyday. there are a lot of thoughts in me that were supposed to pen down. at least it will give me smiles ten years down the road. i have been balding badly enough, the opacity of my head is getting clearer day by day. EID is being worse than a bitch, i need to complete at least the frame to move along the toilet seat. hey at least im proud doing my project, it teaches me something every single time i think of toilets. today was quite blatant i supposed. the weather is getting more or less like Brunei, having mood swings; thunderstorms out of the blue.

i cranked up my running routine now, trying to clock faster timing for the distance. i hope Ford could help with that. the tenth of April will be IPPT, hoping it could top up my savings and then we, Ford and me could at least have a celebration drink. only that ill be having plain water.

i met my 2IC recently, he was taking part-time masters, was planning to pursue full-time study next year onwards, masters, pHD etc. well, guess he's hanging his green uniform, life in army is shiet. i feel you Captain. i wish him all the best. guess students will never ever have the thought that he was a prestigious Infantry Officer. well Sir, hope you become some professor some day, and build some massive weapons for our defense ay?

i actually kinda miss this space. i miss wearing green though. i dont know why this feeling. cheeeeeep.

Spread the Peace

disease.

this laziness is a disease in me. i am so lacking of motivation. the fire to burn on revision. i am left with 8 weeks to exams, dammit.

Peace

all i want to do is fly.

a lot lot lot lot lot lot things running in my head consecutively, making me stone. why not blog, i am fighting procrastination by doing something. i have wasted 1 hour just now staring at the wall. another 30 mins watching youtube and youtube is awesome. it is like cable teevee, anything and everything under the sun.

anyway, i woke up late for project meet up, a leader. waking. up. late. how bad does that reflect me. ah, i have to improve on my sleeping timings and my eating habits which reminded me, i had 2 servings of fried bee hoon just before i log on to blogger.

3 quizzes in the coming week. cool or what. project and project and project and project and project.

call me up for reservists. seriously.

Peace

so long ah.

it has been a while since i write nonsense on this ancient blog of mine. it is already the second month of 2010 and the world is spinning at faster rate as the weeks passed. so i have to get a load off my chest for a bit before i resume with tutorials that i have been lagging with. i will not whine too long. or rant too much.

first and foremost i screwed up my first semester. all the xbox fault lah. haha, pardon me. anyway, looking forward, i have plentiful modules to be completed if i were to graduate in 3 years time. but with the pace i am having; retaking all my failed modules, i prolly have to go for one more semester or prolly the whole year to complete a full degree.

aiya. i dont know. for now i am trying very hard to study. if only the computer and internet did not exist today, studying will be like facebook. why cant facebook provide tutorials. hello, im an addict.

Peace