manufactured.

i have to get this load off somehow. exams are halfway through, today was pretty hard to conform. after three blows of examination im finally settling into having the sense of being intimidated by the papers. i feel like im spanked hard on the face for not putting a lot more effort. i am me. i do not take stress seriously, if it comes ill pass it on to my games and military novels.

today was quite bleah. nahhh i didnt wake up early to meet buddies for last second revision. yet i was greeted by students, excited over their last paper as i exited my bus towards the exam hall. fuck you, a little bit of consideration would help my morale in surviving the next two and a half hours in the freezing cold examination hall. oh great i am in the first row. i was thinking of cheating hoping that my notes would be invisible, tough luck, there was this camera 45 degrees staring at me blankly. i was wondering who would be watching me struggling my nerves out behind those lenses. to make it worst, invigilators are directly infront of me, grinning. seems students keep walking in and out to the toilet, i assume they are looking for answers ay? anyway. anyway. the best of all is me darting blankly at this particular question, while Sherwood(the lecturer for the module) is on my 12 looking down on me.

looking down on me. oh yes i was down, but lets hope for the best. three more papers to go.

Peace