every night you cry yourself to sleep. thinking: "why does this happen to me? why does every moment have to be so hard?" hard to believe that, it's not over tonight. just give me one more chance to make it right, i may not make it through the night. i won't go home without you.

when a mistake is committed, and its unintentional. erm ohkay, not really a heavy sinful mistake but something that gets me into a lot of trouble. i have this fear that it will repeat itself again. it gets constant, and every inch of thing that i do, i be much more careful and very aware of every single tweak of em minor muscles; double, triple analysis of the mind before the body reacts. and i realise going thru this made me somewhat better. its torturing but it imposed a great effect. like basic just got evovled yo.

i can rant about my painful days. but i wont.

im in a dilemma whether to caption it as 'im your soldier' or 'tangkap cool'. its in roc.

tangkap cool.

Peace