like im 21 now. so does that make me old. ok people grow old. but some wont grow up. i realised it from a long preach of the general. how different age groups think and talk or even write shows his/her maturity level not the age. ok enough, thanks for the wishes ladies. looking at my 20 19 18 17 birthday wishes, i guess 22 will be the same thing.

myanmar, china. india with the bombings. and moms are bringing kids to clubs. can i go to war now? and dont let me see judgement day.

Peace

every night you cry yourself to sleep. thinking: "why does this happen to me? why does every moment have to be so hard?" hard to believe that, it's not over tonight. just give me one more chance to make it right, i may not make it through the night. i won't go home without you.

when a mistake is committed, and its unintentional. erm ohkay, not really a heavy sinful mistake but something that gets me into a lot of trouble. i have this fear that it will repeat itself again. it gets constant, and every inch of thing that i do, i be much more careful and very aware of every single tweak of em minor muscles; double, triple analysis of the mind before the body reacts. and i realise going thru this made me somewhat better. its torturing but it imposed a great effect. like basic just got evovled yo.

i can rant about my painful days. but i wont.

im in a dilemma whether to caption it as 'im your soldier' or 'tangkap cool'. its in roc.

tangkap cool.

Peace

i just came back from the toilet sweating, washing them lumps of uniforms. is this necessary? nevermind, i feel like i just ran some distance.

i dont get it, why Myanmar is still holding up the international aid. i read and read again. i still dont get it. im eating this bread and still have a big tray of em downstairs. can i mail them there. the reports have been very intense on the delta region. at this time and moment now, people are dying. goodness."the strength in his arms saved his life. he could only watch helplessly as his wife, 10 year old son and four year old daughter were dragged to their deaths by the head high waves". a glimpse of judgement day. humans at that split moment will just forget about everyone and everything, realising whats important to them. life. so breathe. it is easy to take so many things for granted. when i read the reports. i stop, and thank God for every peaceful day that passes.

captain was so nice to come down with prata. i think im growing fatter. yes yes, im still detained in camp.

whens mothers day ah? everyday dude. everyday and im missing her.

Peace

to be good is not easy. to constantly impress others is even harder. i need to change.

Peace

im bored. ive been observing so ohkay here are some common pickup lines from the good people in camp. it doesnt really matter if you dont understand. ehem.

"neh! understand"

"jumping jacks in position ready. countless counts of 4. exercise begin"

"down. down. down."

"why never shave. sign 3"

"good morning sir!", "morneeeenggghhh"

"leyy"

"bottles up, caps off(in warcraft human race worker's voice)"

"can like that one meh"

"dont be an idiot"

"senior c!(k)adet"

"order disorder"

"hurry up. hurry up. hurry up. shaddup. shaddup"

"very simple very clear cut"

"above beyond as one"

and the best one ever,

"turnout! turnout! turnout!"

its all the insiders joke man.

Peace

if only i had skills of a jumper.

Peace

i miss home quite suddenly. the feeling is different. hearing my moms voice over the phone compared to talking with her face to face is a no less compared to living in a cell. yep, its been hard. two weeks now. no more mishaps. ill be good.

so whats new yo. its understood that the weather is unforgiving these days. i will always be hosed down with sweat head to toe. and ive been drinking a lot. minus being drunk, its really beginning to become Brunei here man. my lips was dry this morning when i woke up. and i bath 6 times on a daily basis here in camp. so dont complain kids. drink more water.

and reaching 21 soon, i ever asked myself, why i chose this path. i felt a tinge of responsibility. to be good and to do good.

Peace