nsman are one great bunch of dudes mayne. i got treated with ice cream and vitamin tees(dont ask) and they thought i was like one of em going thru reservist.

ohkay im tired now. miss you mom.

Peace

oh my feet are so itchy. feel like tearing the skin and brush it with dettol.

not going to leave. you.

Peace

idonotknowwhyifeelsouninspiredtodoanything.

Peace

its been exhausting these few days where the worst is yet to come. i am still working, mind you its the weekends. so yep we just ended a small scale training and then we were sitting down waiting for transport to arrive and we started talking. if you guys had notice, each soldier has an id tag also better known as dog tag (engraved identification tag, pfft just wikipedia if you still not sure what is it), which they have to wear it around their neck, the sole purpose is to identify the corpse in case they die brutally in a war. and this particular commander had an additional engraved dog tag which i was deeply touched by it:

im sorry angela, i have to go. i love you and i miss you.

i miss mum.

Peace

ok i am occupied with work. my room is 20% cleaned. it will be forever. and i am spending a lot this month. literally a lot and i need to save. i need to save. i need to save for school. save to pay bills. save in time of emergency.

save for...

Peace

because the hero will eventually become the villain. that is why i do not choose to be the hero.

Peace

avisiontocreateabrand.worldwithoutspacebars.

imhighoncaffeine.igotbored.andimouttawords.sorry.

Peace

oh noes i think the coffee that my colleague prepared manually is starting to kick in. he did it from a french press thingy with all the true coffee seeds and the aroma went all over the office awakening me when i enter this morning. i took a sip and then gulps. in the end i went for another cup. wah crap. i have a course in the morning. i think ill be staring at my ceiling for quite sometime before i sleep. maybe not. how now brown cow. how now sweetie pie.

its so good to hear from my ex platoon on how they progessing thru the email. they were spamming the inbox with all them updates. i hope this goes all the way till we age and wither.

them the best.

lets run now.

Peace

i just realised im a right brainer. i dont do thinking that good. thats why.

Peace

im being easily lethargic every time i step home. the bed is like heaven. it will be hard for me to be detached from it. lazy, sleepy, any unhealthy word you can relate of, makes me today. its a saturday and its the weak end. i just dont want to think or do about anything right now. i clocked a marathon of 12 hours non-stop dreams. and the best next thing i can reach to do is grab my psp and play a full time pro evo 2008 with manchester united. what should i do next. i did a little exercise though, walk around the house grabbing some food. and did a little finger acrobats on the keyboard. how wonderful.

you know what, they should introduce free running to the police corp. you know the parkour, peeps jumping from buildings to buildings like they got no better things to do. why not train the police that, thieves will be quite stunned then and thus easier to capture them. if it is, ill be glad to join the blue force. haha. ohkay not. ill think twice. special ops command sounds nice.

Peace

am not sure whether im being accidentally rude or was actually rude to this guy. he woke me up in the middle of the night asking for help and i was just tucking in to sleep. i was being grudgy at first but apologise for it. and in a daze i asked what did he want but that guy walked away feeling pissed. so okay guess what did i do in that situation,

the answer was i went back to sleep. and the next day i think i got screwed. soon ill get screwed big time because the guy was asking for some medical help. and that guy was some big shot. hmm. like hancock would say.

"goodjob"

Peace

im watching this movie i downloaded zeon months ago. only to find that i had no opportunity in finding time to watch it. the film called disturbia by the way. oh my im like few hours away to my outfield and here i am watching it. i just find myself ironic. thats all. and the screen got me hooked alright. the girl was beautiful. the storyline got me really hyped up. you know those kind of scream movies, full of suspense etc. but this one, throughout the whole play, the character is just running around his neighbourhood; in his house actually. which i find it cool.

okay, im getting bored. so whats up sugar.

Peace

ehh kat mana nihh.

meow.

literally a bored game. i finish my drinks though.

i am blue ranger.

thanks for the short meet up. boling growing shorter. with shorter hair. kitchener road. thanks uhh boling. thanks people. time to pack my bag and head to the jungle. hooyah.

miss the gadis. hoho.

Peace

i was running happily at east coast this morning when i think i saw the president. i thought ok this must be some normal citizen going for a jog with his friend. when i got closer, my comrades start greeting him, oh and then i realise his friend was the bodyguard. a few metres i start to see police vans. and yep it was the president.

am not sure whether to call this guy stubborn or idiot or dumb. maybe all. the train was one minute, maybe less, away from reaching the station and this dude is standing with his feet quarter off the ledge of the platform and i was wearing my uniform. as a responsible and trained officer of the singapore armed forces(haha). it was my duty to double my pace and knock him down(punish) in front of the public whom decided to talk amongst themselves not taking any action but just wait and be kiasu to see what happens next. well of course, the punishing didnt happen, i did remind him and he steps back slightly before the train zooms past. and he said thanks. while i was cursing badly inside.

sorry.

Peace

before i forget this. i was sitting around with my colleagues during lunch in the middle of nowhere and as usual random conversation comes in, like from getting demerit points to branded bags stewardess use and then came this. one of the guys start talking about girls(the usual, cfms etc) they discussed something about girls reaching a stage where theres this aura of attractiveness that makes the male go woo. ok im using my term, screw me if you want to. and out of the blue, they told me theres a malay word for it. i said dara at first. however, they insisted that the word starts from the letter g. so it kept me thinking for a day till i got the answer.

"siapa kata gadis melayu tak menawan, tak menarik hati, tiada memikat..." haha. macam you tau.

eee naik bulu roma aku.

the board(bored) of fame.

Peace

these two pictures reminded me some of the worst experiences. its not that long ago. and it made me somewhat regret still. it still fresh in the mind on how i panickly got over the radio. the thought of being lost deep inside with thunderstorms that kept me slipping into the river full of leeches. i almost lost an eye in the thick vegetation. i was the gang leader then; bringing up the morale for team members is even harder when i had the thought of giving up. did i mention that i cried silently on one of my lonely nights? and all done, i was pissed and disappointed with myself of all the torture that went to waste. im just glad that dear pc was damn proud of me. a phase i will never forget.

"...if you had lost a man in a battle, dont let your morale down on the rest, the war still have to continue."

dude why am i even sharing this. i guess i just have to let this heart out. like i had mentioned earlier, its still caught up in the mind. it feels as if i have some unfinished business. nonetheless, i do have slight regrets over it.

Peace

work has been fine. erm. yep. only that i could not stand the distance to and fro camp and house. ill wake up early and end up finding myself drooling in the train. i should just stay in for the whole week but nobody wants to, and im coward enough to be the only one sleeping in the whole building. people here are great. that goes along to the facilities too. excellent. i love work.

i like mcspicy. it tastes just like her. yumm.

Peace