i cry when angels deserve to die.

i could not run any faster. my feet felt numb, but i kept on going to finish another ten rounds. i keep forcing my stride higher so that i can go faster. there is something pulling me back to the ground i feel like quitting.

i cannot do anything. my belief to achieve is far. i am still breathing. i lay motionless on this chair with papers of fake scribblings. my brain is dead.

Peace

on the double.

i find myself lazy to write, everyday. there are a lot of thoughts in me that were supposed to pen down. at least it will give me smiles ten years down the road. i have been balding badly enough, the opacity of my head is getting clearer day by day. EID is being worse than a bitch, i need to complete at least the frame to move along the toilet seat. hey at least im proud doing my project, it teaches me something every single time i think of toilets. today was quite blatant i supposed. the weather is getting more or less like Brunei, having mood swings; thunderstorms out of the blue.

i cranked up my running routine now, trying to clock faster timing for the distance. i hope Ford could help with that. the tenth of April will be IPPT, hoping it could top up my savings and then we, Ford and me could at least have a celebration drink. only that ill be having plain water.

i met my 2IC recently, he was taking part-time masters, was planning to pursue full-time study next year onwards, masters, pHD etc. well, guess he's hanging his green uniform, life in army is shiet. i feel you Captain. i wish him all the best. guess students will never ever have the thought that he was a prestigious Infantry Officer. well Sir, hope you become some professor some day, and build some massive weapons for our defense ay?

i actually kinda miss this space. i miss wearing green though. i dont know why this feeling. cheeeeeep.

Spread the Peace

disease.

this laziness is a disease in me. i am so lacking of motivation. the fire to burn on revision. i am left with 8 weeks to exams, dammit.

Peace

all i want to do is fly.

a lot lot lot lot lot lot things running in my head consecutively, making me stone. why not blog, i am fighting procrastination by doing something. i have wasted 1 hour just now staring at the wall. another 30 mins watching youtube and youtube is awesome. it is like cable teevee, anything and everything under the sun.

anyway, i woke up late for project meet up, a leader. waking. up. late. how bad does that reflect me. ah, i have to improve on my sleeping timings and my eating habits which reminded me, i had 2 servings of fried bee hoon just before i log on to blogger.

3 quizzes in the coming week. cool or what. project and project and project and project and project.

call me up for reservists. seriously.

Peace

so long ah.

it has been a while since i write nonsense on this ancient blog of mine. it is already the second month of 2010 and the world is spinning at faster rate as the weeks passed. so i have to get a load off my chest for a bit before i resume with tutorials that i have been lagging with. i will not whine too long. or rant too much.

first and foremost i screwed up my first semester. all the xbox fault lah. haha, pardon me. anyway, looking forward, i have plentiful modules to be completed if i were to graduate in 3 years time. but with the pace i am having; retaking all my failed modules, i prolly have to go for one more semester or prolly the whole year to complete a full degree.

aiya. i dont know. for now i am trying very hard to study. if only the computer and internet did not exist today, studying will be like facebook. why cant facebook provide tutorials. hello, im an addict.

Peace

manufactured.

i have to get this load off somehow. exams are halfway through, today was pretty hard to conform. after three blows of examination im finally settling into having the sense of being intimidated by the papers. i feel like im spanked hard on the face for not putting a lot more effort. i am me. i do not take stress seriously, if it comes ill pass it on to my games and military novels.

today was quite bleah. nahhh i didnt wake up early to meet buddies for last second revision. yet i was greeted by students, excited over their last paper as i exited my bus towards the exam hall. fuck you, a little bit of consideration would help my morale in surviving the next two and a half hours in the freezing cold examination hall. oh great i am in the first row. i was thinking of cheating hoping that my notes would be invisible, tough luck, there was this camera 45 degrees staring at me blankly. i was wondering who would be watching me struggling my nerves out behind those lenses. to make it worst, invigilators are directly infront of me, grinning. seems students keep walking in and out to the toilet, i assume they are looking for answers ay? anyway. anyway. the best of all is me darting blankly at this particular question, while Sherwood(the lecturer for the module) is on my 12 looking down on me.

looking down on me. oh yes i was down, but lets hope for the best. three more papers to go.

Peace

i want to buy GTR.

credits to fahn togel. the lecturer that took care of me for 3 years is now a millionaire. he was sort of the care person to a small class of students which included me throughout my time in polytechnic. coincidentally, he was my supervisor for my final year project. which is cool shiznit. well, i could guess from the image above, his road to millionaire was part of my group effort in developing his idea of bone scaffolding. we fabricated a plate and an extruder to protrude out filaments that will make the product. we scored well for it. guess our group sleepless night paid off and did him proud. look at how wide his smile is.

go here to find out more about the product we used to work on.

Peace